Opportunity Costs

I just got out of a job interview for a 8-week position through a staffing agency that pays $10 an hour (low for the skill level they wanted) but would possibly give me more design experience. In my pocket, I had a voicemail waiting from another staffing agency about a $14 an hour, 6-month position that would have me working in Marketing Communications, specifically social media, with a "large, well-known nonprofit." Neither offers any benefits or promises of extensions. I'm still waiting to hear back from the actual jobs that I applied directly to, full time permanent positions with benefits and salaries. I'm about to lose my fucking mind with all these choices, except none of them are actual offers yet. The only definite thing I have going on is the catering work I have scheduled for the month, which will pay my rent and bills. Do I say F it to these temporary positions? Do I accept the first position that offers, then quit if another one offers? Do I focus on the permanent positions? Do I start drinking now, or should I just overeat? Actually, I think I'm going to call a psychiatrist and make an appointment because I am legit having anxiety and drugs medicine are the best solution probably. Until I get addicted to them. I keep flashing back to my Into to Business class from sophomore year of high school, or maybe it was my Econ 101 class at the Florida College I went to, discussions of opportunity costs and making the best decision. I wish I could make ANY decision right now.

Updates From the Edge

my tumblr is down, I have so many feelings I want to share with the world, but of course as soon as I open this dialog box my mind goes blank. I guess I'm still unemployed, single, drink too much and move aimlessly through life, so NOT MUCH HAS CHANGED. Oh, except now my mom is getting divorced, living in a bedroom with my sister at my aunt's house in Naperville, and my brother is married. Looks like everyone has made a bit of progress, right? I mean, I do have a second degree in graphic design now, and I'm on the V-E-R-G-E of getting a job (meaning maybe in the next 6 months, don't you know this is the great recession of 2010 and almost 2011 now?) and I guess I'm okay with not being great at anything. Acceptance is beautiful, isn't it? Maybe I'll get back into this blog, it's a great place to open up now that I know IRL most of the local people who read my tumblr. What ever happened to privacy for posting things on the internet, huh?